I sit under the vast expanse of the starry night sky –
Watching them glistening.
There was once a time
When all the storms raging from my insides subsided
By just looking at them.
But not tonight.
They seem too far.
Distant and unreachable.
Just like everything I’ve ever planned.
Just like everything I’ve ever wanted.
I close my eyes,
Willing to shut everything out.
But I held too much darkness within me
That closing my eyes makes no difference.
So I scream.
Unleashing the fury that was sitting there for so long.
I scream and scream and scream.
Hoping all the pain will fade as my voice starting to vanish.
Everything is just too much,
Everything is too much.